A Prayer for Salvation

There is someone who prayed this prayer for salvation. He grew up in the church but still did not have peace in his heart. You might like it, so I have written it out here for you.

"I am on the edge of something. That something is Salvation and Salvation is Christ. I want someone to preach to me. I want someone who knows to hold my hand. That someone I want to be Christ. I want Jesus to grab my hand and pull me through the narrow gate and up the narrow way. I repent of unbelief, that is my greatest sin, I did not see it, I could not see it. Unbelief is the worst evil. God please cure my "evil heart of unbelief." I fall into your arms to enter your rest, Jesus. I repent of my dead works. Forgive me for working and playing in the hour of salvation, the Sabbath of Rest that is in Christ Jesus. Put your yoke upon me Jesus. I want to die to my will and plans and live to yours because yours are much better than anything I would have for myself. God please have mercy on me a sinner.

I do not trust feelings and right now these words are not saturated with much feeling at all but that does not matter you are not looking at my feelings you are looking at the true me that calls out to you asking you to save. You did not say, "All who call on the name of the lord will be saved only if they have strong feelings." No you said that in the last days, "all who call on the name of the lord will be saved."

God I recognize my spiritual poverty and ask that you would let my buy gold that is without price from your hand. I recognize my nakedness how I have sinned and ask that you would give me clothes that would cover my shameful nakedness. I recognize my blindness in how I have not been willing to see your truth because I preferred darkness to light. Give my eye salve to heal my sight so that I would be able to see and repent.

But above all I recognize my greatest sin is unbelief and that is the only sin worth mentioning, all others are a result of that one. I will choose to rest in your promise of salvation to those who rest in your promise.

I believe that believing in the Son of God, Jesus, who is Salvation, will result in my salvation because You Jesus died to take down the enemy and rose again to the right hand of God and He has put everything under your feet. Remember me in your Kingdom. Take me to your Kingdom for you are Lord. You are King of heaven and earth and under the earth. God I believe that you came to deliver me from my sins so I accept your Authority to destroy the sin of unbelief in my heart and the pride that lurks there.

I have not believed that you wanted me, more than I wanted you. I did not believe that you were seeking me, more than I was seeking you. I did not believe that you were good, but that you were a hard master. I thought that my own desire for you, would give you reason to save me. I loved darkness more than light. I thought that you would not accept me, unless I repented with tears and emotion. All I have thought about is myself and in this is pride. I was proud that I had a heart after You God, but I did not. I was sure that you would see my much prayer, and fasting, and study and would not turn me away for all of that. I would not let go of my own way of striving to be rid of sin, because of unbelief. I did not believe that you God were able to save without preparatory works. I did not believe that you were capable of setting me free from my tormentors. And that those could possible hinder me from having salvation.

For all of this I repent I admit my guilt and come to you just as I am, You can save and I let go, believing that you will catch me. I believe this will not lead to sin, for how can you be an author of sin. God I ask for your spirit because you are more willing to give me your spirit than I am to ask. You are more willing to save me than I am to ask. You have more ability than I am able.

Please give me peace that is true peace and quietness that is true calm. Jesus you can calm the storm You have the Authority over even the wind and the waves so please say the word and my storm will be calmed, for you are Lord."

I Am Afraid

I am afraid that I will waste my life. The little decisions that I have habitually made through life. The cheating on math the cheating on spelling when I was little was because I did not want to do hard things. The hard things in life are done because of vision. My life is slipping away because I lack vision. I perish for lack of vision. Have I let vision die? Where is vision where is the striving to do hard things in life? The times where I have sinned and treated the grace of God as freedom to sin not as something that would lead me to repentance. God I need you even in the little things. Who can change my life? Where is there any hope for me? Again and again I go down the same old easy way and see the narrow way as too difficult. God can you help me? You seem so far away. So distant and hard to find. I do not want to waste my life but I have not ever seemed to put enough into anything I have done. I wish I could put more into what I do and do 100% at whatever I do and not 80%. God I feel like I am an 80% christian and never seem to be able to make it all the way but I know God that it is your grace alone. Faith. Believe and that is the key. I believe Lord, Help my unbelief.

My Enemy

When we sign on to God’s plan for our growth, we’re declaring war on our sin nature and it fights the idea of do hard things with everything its got. The reason it’s so hard to do hard things is because our sinful flesh wants us to do easy things.

Jonathan Edwards, a great American theologian, once wrote: “The way to Heaven is ascending; we must be content to travel uphill, though it be hard and tiresome, and contrary to the natural bias of our flesh.”

http://www.therebelution.com/blog/2007/12/why-do-hard-things-part-two/